"I love the dark maybe we can make it darker...I am a maniac. I am the maniac. I am the fool. I found a monster in me when I lost my cool. It lives inside of me; eating what's in its way. I want to spend time with it. I think I'm losing it. Or I found it and I'm using it."
I must be honest. I've been lying this whole time. It was unintentional, but it was still a lie none the less. I though I was incorruptible. I figured after all this time and all that I've been exposed to I could be a good person. I attempted to purge myself of the darkness and malice that resides within me. I even began to believe myself a good person. It is said there is power in the spoken word so I kept telling people I was a good person. Problem with that is deep down no matter how I try I'll never be any different. Power is an intoxicating poison, and once you have a taste it becomes so very addicting. It entices those around it with a sweet scent and induces selfish, sometimes irrational sensations. Power has the ability to overwhelm and completely subdue those that ingest too much of it's aroma. I'm no different. For a time I was.
I was actually a good person that believed in the preservation of life, freedom and humane treatment. I felt that intelligence, education, and rationality were natural born rights for every human being with the ability to cultivate them. As time progresses I see that not all are as interested in the bettering of themselves and their habitats. I see animals consumed by the simplicities of an unrewarding life. I see rodents that spread ignorance like disease and sow illness like seeds. I cast away my 'superiority complex' so very long ago for the humble companionship and understanding of close friends and loved ones, but as time progresses I feel it's remnants fermenting and being distilled. Like a fine wine it's being tinted with the red hue of hatred borne of observation and interaction. The more I see, the more superior I feel to these people with knowledge in negligible subject matter. Their primary goals are fruitless ones that inevitably will lay the foundation for a society of degenerates. Legalizing marijuana and various other drugs, lowering drinking ages, improving alcoholic content of beverages, reality television, substance-lacking music, and irresponsible sexual behavior? I believe I've just summed up a good eighty-five percent of the western 'society'. A culture created to root ignorance deeper and deeper into each generation.
Can you blame me for looking down on these people from some high horse? Can you blame me for considering myself superior to them despite my own abstract morals? Am I wrong from thinking there's something wrong with this broken thing we call our country? A place still laden with racists, sexists, liberals, conservatives, and countless other subdivisions of peoples? Is there something wrong with me wanting there to be a mass extinction or even go so far as to say a selective cleansing? Before anyone screams "Darfur" or ethnic cleansing or even genocide (which is usually synonymous) I'm thinking more along the lines of purging our nation of them though less horrid means. Forced re-education or maybe extraditing them to foreign countries that wouldn't mind copious amounts of idiots? I may be a monster, but despite my acceptance of my fate I still wish to attempt to be a good person. There's always a peaceful resolution..though it may not be the quickest.
"Hypocrisy is the foundation of humanity". I'm not saying it's right to bring anyone harm, but that won't stop me from doing it if I'm pushed far enough. Especially considering my patience is no where near endless anymore. I'm heartless enough to do whatever I feel needs to be done within permissible, preferably legal 'boundaries'. Boy what I'd give for diplomatic immunity. Or to have my finger on the button as they say. Like I said, I'm a hypocrite even if I believe both are acceptable means of furthering our society.
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