The Truth about Justice

You want to know the truth about 'justice'? It doesn't exist. Karma doesn't give those who have wronged you 'exactly what they deserve'. Karma is an emotional crutch people use to get by each day in hopes that their enemies will suffer for bringing them harm. For the longest time I believed that karma and justice were practically one and the same. Those who did wrong suffered while those who did good were rewarded. Simple enough concept until I took note of something. I've done horrible, horrible things in my life as have many others and we have been nothing but rewarded. The good people of the world seem to do nothing but suffer. I've waited day in and day out for karma to lash out and punish me for all my wrong-doings and nothing has happened that I couldn't deal with. Unless of course karma punishes those you care about. In which case I got the ultimate dose on Monday. How you ask? I nearly lost someone very important to me. The individual I feel is responsible for nursing me back to health and always having my back despite any and every endeavor. This person has done nothing but the right thing every chance he's gotten and never turned trouble to anyone.
How does the universe repay his innocence? With a hospital visit in critical condition and I'm the first person he asks for? I feel so guilty that I wasn't there. I understand now why people feel this way when tragedies strike. It wasn't fair. He's done nothing to warrant that and is probably the most innocent person I know. Meanwhile people like me can get away with almost anything and not suffer the consequences? Don't tell me there's anything like justice or karma. I don't believe it applies to every situation. Who knows where I'd have been without that dear friend taking care of me for so long. Who knows where I'll be if anything should ever happen to him again? If he's ever hurt again I may just become an even worse person.