"Something's getting in the way. Something's just about to break. I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane. Try to find out what makes you tick as I lie down, sore and sick. There's a fine line between love and hate and I like that."
Shuffle has a way of just being awesome and reminding me of songs I've forgotten. Now this can easily be misinterpreted but I'll leave this one ambiguous so any who read this may draw the message from it they feel they need. The human mind has a natural tendency to interpret things negatively as a precaution. Optimism is a choice, pessimism is a reflex. I wish to emphasize the phrase "try to find out what makes you tick." I hate to be the one to do this, but how many of you question those around you? I mean question their sincerity with a fine toothed comb. Scrutinize every word that comes out of their mouth? If you do. There's something wrong with you. It's okay to question people and their motives, but after a certain amount of time interacting with someone you build up a base level of trust and better come to understand their motives and if they coincide with your own. Questioning people's motives and sincerity from time to time is perfectly normal, rational, and even healthy. It helps you learn a lot.
How many of you question yourselves? If you don't and feel that everything you do is absolutely right, you have a problem. You should be certain about a few things in your life, but you should reassess your own objectives and goals every so often. Maybe even question yourself as a person, especially if you have some sort of issue you just can't seem to overcome. Why am I in this situation? Why do I feel like I can't get out of it? Are you under someone else's thumb? Or is this a prison of your own construction? If you haven't noticed I like to ask a lot of questions. They may seem rhetorical, but very rarely are they. My questions are meant to be answered one way or another. Even if it's in the back of your mind, there must be an answer. There's no such thing as a dumb question. Why? Because every question that attains an answer grants you some form of knowledge. Whether or not you utilize it or learn how to, is entirely up to you. The harder the question, the deeper the life lesson and the more rewarding it will be when answered. It's simple equivalent exchange. You'll get out whatever effort you put in.
"There's a fine line between love and hate, and I like that."
That's one very true statement. How often have people you once loved become hated enemies? How about vice-versa? It has happened to us all. Life lesson in one line. Reason why I like that? Because as a person I can easily discern between my thoughts, emotions, sensations and over all feelings. People have a tendency to either love me or hate me for that very reason. I often come off as a callous individual with my terse, occasionally blunt answers. You demand a response from me in one way or another by being involved in my life, and I will give you one. Usually the one I believe you need. Why sugar coat anything? It's only good for rotting teeth and distracting you from the real flavor of things anyway. I like that one minute people can love me and the next they can hate me. It means I'm good at my job of mental catalyst. We would all like to be loved for who we are, but that's a rarity considering people are different. No everyone is not different. Everyone is one large venn diagram of categories that overlap. You are not all unique snow flakes, sorry. I just happen to be one incredibly small circle that shifts in attempt to better adapt to those I encounter and interact with. So deal with it. Fix what you must, and replace what's beyond the ability to repair.
"I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for someone I am not"
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